GLANCES

by WildnerveZ

Love, a word composed of few letters but draws a million of pictures within each of us. It has different meanings which depend upon the pers on who feels it.

Right to love
(a friend of mine)

He is a great friend of mine. He is a silent person, discreet and eccentric. He is so kind to me, which made me to think that this man is a gay and he is inlove with me. His sticky glances at me became a part of my days. I felt so weird. His special feelings for me became very obvious day by day. I don’t know what to feel bout him. Yet, I still treated him as a close friend of mine. Nothing changed. I guessed he is a gay. Maybe he admires me; he is in love with me. Actually I don’t know what to feel bout that but I'm quite confused on how to treat him. How? Maybe I hate it. I hate that he is inlove with me. But what can I do? Nothing. It is his right to love. It is inevitable for him. I actually don’t know how this guy fell in love with me. One day he gave me a letter.

A Stranger
(Hidden Identity)


One busy burning Saturday, someone texted me. I hate it caused I thought someone was trying to deceive me. Below is our text conversations. (I made it short)


Stranger: "Hi."

Me: " May I know Your name?"

Stranger.: "I'm Leny, from morong, 19 bout you?

Me: "Weh, I'm ken. Please don’t deceive me cause I hate it. I knw you know me."

Stranger: "Im not deceiving you, I assure you. Can we be textmates?"

Me: "Okay, but tell me your real name, pls."

Stranger: "I'm leny"

Me: "Okay I'll just text you later. I'm busy"

Stranger: " Okay, take care and God bless you, ken, A FRIEND OF MINE."

A FRIEND OF MINE is the song written on the letter given to me by him. A clue. Then there I knew it. The one who are texting me is a friend of mine.

Me: "weh, You are him!"
Stranger: "Yes, hehe, am I a good actor?"


The Revelations
(I Love You So Much)

I told him that I have a girlfriend already. I think it made him feel so doomed. He said that he was quite disappointed. Hehe. There he told me that he really love me till now and that I'm his inspiration. I felt quite weird. He is a gay, I concluded. After years of hiding his feelings, there he did it. He was able to say it to me.

"I'm not a gay." He said.

Wow I got confused.

There, the revelations begun.

======He is a hermaphrodite. He got two undeveloped genitals of both a man and a a woman. He was treated by his family as a guy. He was introduced to the society as a guy. However, my friend feels different. He has a heart of a woman. His feeling is more of a girl, feminine. Few people know his secret, mostly his relatives. I think it is so hard for him. He can't show the real him cause of the idea that people would judge him. They would treat him differently, sadly negatively. His condition is actually abnormal. He is so confused. Now he just keep on living as a normal man. He just hides his real identity from the judgmental humanity. I told him, that he is a responsible man, bright and benevolent, which would bring him to success above those who are normal. =============

The Best
(continue living)

He told me that he really loves me. He really admires me. A feeling of jealousy is inevitable, I guess, especially now that he know that I got a girlfriend already. I told him that He will never ever find the right person for him if he will always consider me as the best one. He just told me that it's too hard for him. Very difficult.

Now, we're good friends. He said that he will just continue living, and will try to become optimistic that someday, he will be able to see the right person who will accept and love him forever.

Devastated

by WildnerveZ

I feel so devastated today!!!!!!

I got here job offers but up to now, all of them are still offers.

I wanna have a secured job before I'll attend my review this coming September.

Job offers by now:

Pending------

a. People Support (call center agent)
b. Commercial model. (pending VTR)
c. Assistant of a professor
d. COURSE AUDIT STAFF (recent)

I'm so interested with all of those jobs but I still have to wait,.....
and I dont know till when I have to be patient.

Just this morning my friend professor texted me to come to the campus cause there is a job opporunity which really fits me.

I was so happy and so optimistic, thinking that this would be the job im waiting for.

Then after long wait,.....my friend told me that I have to wait till the course audit coordinator needed my service. I have to wait till someone resigned from the same job, wait till someone needs to be replaced by me.

whew,...I'm so dissapointed.


actually i'm looking for a job cause I wanna support my expenses this coming September.
I wanna fulfill something,..... . I wanna make my life meaningful even for six months. I got here six dull months, and I really really hate it!!!!!!!

I wanna CRY

(.T_T.)

I HAVE A DREAM

by WildnerveZ

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale

You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
MY FAVORITE SONG

I wanna:

make this blog, wildnervez a popular blog site.
make a website and make it popular
be good in making animations
learn how to use 3d animation-makers software
learn how to type without looking at the keyboard.
be more articulate
have a job before September 2008,any job
support my own fees for my review this coming September
Loose a little weight. I'm getting bigger.
be taller, 5'7" is enough. Im 5'5" right now.
be a commercial model (as if)
Pass the November 2008 Board examination for future nurses
Be a successful and competent nurse
watch 3d movies in Mall of Asia.
buy lots/houses in different places, here and abroad.
have a roller coaster ride in Enchanted Kingdom
have a trip in Manila Ocean Park.
have a swim in Boracay
give my family a better life
ride in an airplane and in a helicopter.
have a trip around the world.
Have a glass house
Plasma TV
have the newest model of cellphone. Recom no more.
have TV inside my toilet]
have the newest model of laptop
have my own Jacuzzi and covered swimming fool.
have my own beach resort
have a business together with my friends as business partners.
provide jobs for the poor
have a sip of the most expensive soup on earth.
be a cook
be a baker
reach the highest mountain on earth
buy original copies of movies. Pirated no more.
have a centralized aircon inside my house
buy LCD for my theater room.
have my own modern model of video cam and digi cam
be married with my very beloved hunny, 4-5 years from now
have 5 or more healthy kids
name my first son, Kyle.
celebrate their birthday with a chocolate fountain
name my next child, Zeke
have a twin
have a happy and prosperous family
be respected by people who never prayed for my success.
be a director
be a good writer
Make a very successful movie/ entertainment projects.
found a charity for unfortunate children.
have a trip in the new seven wonders of the world.
be an instructor/professor
Have my own house abroad.
feel the coldness of snow
Have a roller coaster ride in Disney land together with my family.
be SOMEBODY.
own big named companies.
have one million pesos inside my pocket
try sky diving
have my own car. The most expensive.
have a longer life
die without enemies
die without contact lens or eye glasses
travel outside the earth's atmosphere
make my surname, LIBREA, popular.
know what's behind life
know if ghosts are really true.
die with a smile.
be cremated.
be in heaven, with GOD.

Steel Stealers!

by WildnerveZ

I HATE ROBBERS!!!!!

Steels are a strong alloy of iron containing up to 1.5 percent carbon along with small amounts of other elements such as manganese, chromium, and nickel.
It can be sold in junk shops with a price depending on its quality.

Just this morning of July 4, three of our steel bowls were robbed. This was actually our first time to experience this kind of unwanted and obnoxious crime. It was not actually the lost which caused our anger, but the situation per se. The situation wherein we are being puzzled by someone whom we do not know what he/she can do in the future. What if he/she robbed electric wires from our area? Blackout is a doomsday for me.

Actually three steel bowls were just little compared with motorcycles, roofs and home appliances robbed by that bullshit from our bothered neighbors.
A neighboring abandoned house, four blocks from our house was now a literal massacre victim wherein its steel walls, roofs, skeletons were being robbed bit by bit.

The robber might be one of our unfortunate neighbors who were compelled by extreme misery and poverty to steal. He/she might be a drug addict who needs to buy grams of shabu to compensate with his/her addiction.

The case of the steel stealer is still unclosed. I'm hoping that the person concern with all of this will be arrested sooner.

Wowowee vs. Eat Bulaga

by WildnerveZ

I'm not a kapamilya nor a kapuso. I watch what is great. I watch what is cool!!!!!!

Before, my perception about Wowowee is that it is the cheapest and most horrible program on Philippine television. Now, I watch it because I feel no boredom during luch time everytime I watch it. I love the willi of Fortune segment. It is cool, very funny. Everyone, audience and contestants were showing there true selves. Eat Bulaga is getting worst, very corny and HORRIBLE. Ive seen the "Sa Pula, Sa Puti segment" and I find it so boring. Listening to its game song is very disgusting. I hate the tune, even the ear punching lyrics. Poor tio, vic and Joey. Their noontime show is
getting funny no more.

They also imitated some of the strategies of their rival show. For example is the segment where in they let their contestants to show their talents like in Willie of Fortune segment of Wowowee.
Willie Revillame's show is getting better than before in spite of the cheating scandal in Pera o Bayong segment. I think it is true, because of some evidences caught on video as shown on youtube.com. But because of their positive appeal to many and growing viewers, that scandal was expunged already.

I don’t think so that Eat Bulaga is still the number one noon time show. It's a mess if it is.

Ive seen the very beautiful and sexy Angelica Panganiban in wowowee. She's a mess. She's not a good host. Direct was correct. She's a statue behind Willie.

Who's that beautiful lady besides pokwang? Mariane? She's so cute but also a nasty host.

I love that girl endorsing Pau Liniment. Milagring? She's cute.

I hate that crazy, shabu-user looking dancer who endorses WOW MAGIC sing. She's not funny, she's scary and horrid.

We're not ALONE?

by WildnerveZ

ABSENCE of EVIDENCE
is not
EVIDENCE
of
ABSENCE

Year 2008:: No concrete evidences of Extra Terrestrial Life Form were obtained.

I do believe that EARTH is not the only living planet in the vast and infinite Universe. There are a countless number of planets and galaxies in space. There are planets that may have the same features as of our own earth.

We can never tell that there are no living creatures in Mercury, Jupiter, mars or any planets we know at this time.

Our space machines and robots sent to those planets in our solar system were designed to obtain pictures on the surface of alien planets. Most of the photos obtained from each projects were supporting the idea that there is no life form there. Let us consider the idea that there are intelligent creatures from other planets and they have sent the same kind of machine to our planet for studies same as what we humans are doing. Then their machines landed in Gobi Desert. They would even think that the earth is a deserted planet and no life forms are present.

Collision

by WildnerveZ

THE COLLISION OF TWO GREAT GALAXIES.

According to a science related program on HISTORY CHANNEL (cable channel) the universe is continuously expanding. This was confirmed by the National Aeronautics and Space Administration (NASA). This information was supported by records showing the changes in the distances of galaxies from our own milky way. Some were getting farther and some were getting nearer. One of the most terrifying findings of NASA is the future collision of two major galaxies in space. These two galaxies were the ANDROMEDA (M31, NGC 224) and the Milky Way. Andromeda galaxy is bigger than Milky Way. It is binucleated. Thus, it has enormous gravitational force that will immediately absorb our spiral galaxy. The collision would greatly affect all solar systems and planets within each galaxy, including our own earth. Theories were presented stating that the earth would bang to other heavenly bodies, like planets and space rocks causing the ruination of all life forms on earth.

a FEAST beneath

by WildnerveZ

The fisherman thought that he just caught some kind of a big species of a fish which caused his difficulty in lifting his fish net from the sea.

A story from a primetime news program

Whew, he was so shocked and surprised when he saw a cadaver stocked on his net with big squidz and shrimps attached into it.Those creatures were all sucking and eating a big fleshy meat of a man.

Very GROSS!!!!!

They were having a corpse feast. Nutritious extracts from the rotten flesh of that man is a nutritious snack for them.

I love beef, chicken and pork.....I love vegetables too....I'm an omnivore...

Hoho, ill not eat shrimps and squids in a meantime, or should i say forever. I'll think about it many times.

Hehe, (.!_!.)