Dusty Sideline

by WildnerveZ

I think nowadays, putting a little primitivism onto our daily living is quite helpful.
The price of LPG, necessary for cooking is on its hike. Because of that economical dilemma, many people prefer to use charcoal as a substitute to the expensive LPG.
My family is actually one of many thrifty families in town who uses charcoal. Actually we also have LPG but we use it very seldom. Because of the increasing demand of charcoal, my mom decided to make a business out of this black dusty burned piece of wood. We, now sells charcoal. It's available in sacks, and costs P130/sack. Many of our buyers are very satisfied on the quality of our charcoal. The charcoals we sells were ordered from a friend of my mom. My aunt used to order packed charcoals from us. We deliver it to her in packs already and give it to her for only P2.50/pack. She sells it on her store for only P3.00. She always orders a minimum of 180 packs of charcoals from us regularly. Dusts from it irritate my sensitive nose. But, money out of it widens my smile.

I THINK...

by WildnerveZ

I Think…


Buying and selling pirated DVD's is legal.
I've seen a police buying one.

No Filipinos will suffer from hunger
If every day is Election Day.

No one really idolize PGMA
Because, all of us want to be tall.

Road developments and Public Establishments will begin to rise on 2010
It's Election Year.

Sinking Vessel

by WildnerveZ

Filipinos are passengers of a low quality vessel which may sink anytime, anywhere. Our captain is going to kill us. He will do it gradually. He disguised himself by wearing white clothe and cap. His intention is not to bring the passenger in their destinations but to suck their pockets and bank cards. Because he was not a competent captain, he didn’t noticed that his ship was already weak and vulnerable. Poor Filipinos are in great danger. He is a wicked captain. He was not eager to provide the people the expected quality of service, the people must be availing. The grubby money of the poor Filipinos is his target. He want to suck all of their wealth.
"PILIPINAS" is the name of that ugly vessel.

HE/the CAPTAIN refers to the GOVERNMENT.

Missing You

by WildnerveZ

The day is so dimmed. The sky cries so loud. The wind sobs like a child. I feel very much sad, being away from my Hun. She lives 50 kilometers away from our province and it makes me feel so gloomy. I miss her so much, and I'm hoping that she feels the same way. I know that she loves me very much and it's enough to make me feel so fortunate. I have someone to lean on. I have a very special someone who inspires me to move on. She lives so lively inside my soul. She runs frenziedly here inside my head.

I miss her giggles and jokes. She always makes me smile whenever I'm in melancholy. She erases the folds on my forehead when I'm livid. I miss her so much. I can't wait for our next rendezvous.

Smile my Hun, smile. Take care of your self and take a period of rests. Never put your soul in total exhaustion from wondering and thinking that I might cheat. No, Hun, never. I will only love one, and it's you.

I LEARNED that...

by Wildnervez

Iwamoto is actually a surname
Aileen is actually the real name of whom I know before as Iwa Moto

I have to dry my hands before clicking our CR Light switch,
It's grounded.


The red Eye-Mo is a vasoconstrictor
(Tetra hydro Zoline HCL)

GLANCES

by WildnerveZ

Love, a word composed of few letters but draws a million of pictures within each of us. It has different meanings which depend upon the pers on who feels it.

Right to love
(a friend of mine)

He is a great friend of mine. He is a silent person, discreet and eccentric. He is so kind to me, which made me to think that this man is a gay and he is inlove with me. His sticky glances at me became a part of my days. I felt so weird. His special feelings for me became very obvious day by day. I don’t know what to feel bout him. Yet, I still treated him as a close friend of mine. Nothing changed. I guessed he is a gay. Maybe he admires me; he is in love with me. Actually I don’t know what to feel bout that but I'm quite confused on how to treat him. How? Maybe I hate it. I hate that he is inlove with me. But what can I do? Nothing. It is his right to love. It is inevitable for him. I actually don’t know how this guy fell in love with me. One day he gave me a letter.

A Stranger
(Hidden Identity)


One busy burning Saturday, someone texted me. I hate it caused I thought someone was trying to deceive me. Below is our text conversations. (I made it short)


Stranger: "Hi."

Me: " May I know Your name?"

Stranger.: "I'm Leny, from morong, 19 bout you?

Me: "Weh, I'm ken. Please don’t deceive me cause I hate it. I knw you know me."

Stranger: "Im not deceiving you, I assure you. Can we be textmates?"

Me: "Okay, but tell me your real name, pls."

Stranger: "I'm leny"

Me: "Okay I'll just text you later. I'm busy"

Stranger: " Okay, take care and God bless you, ken, A FRIEND OF MINE."

A FRIEND OF MINE is the song written on the letter given to me by him. A clue. Then there I knew it. The one who are texting me is a friend of mine.

Me: "weh, You are him!"
Stranger: "Yes, hehe, am I a good actor?"


The Revelations
(I Love You So Much)

I told him that I have a girlfriend already. I think it made him feel so doomed. He said that he was quite disappointed. Hehe. There he told me that he really love me till now and that I'm his inspiration. I felt quite weird. He is a gay, I concluded. After years of hiding his feelings, there he did it. He was able to say it to me.

"I'm not a gay." He said.

Wow I got confused.

There, the revelations begun.

======He is a hermaphrodite. He got two undeveloped genitals of both a man and a a woman. He was treated by his family as a guy. He was introduced to the society as a guy. However, my friend feels different. He has a heart of a woman. His feeling is more of a girl, feminine. Few people know his secret, mostly his relatives. I think it is so hard for him. He can't show the real him cause of the idea that people would judge him. They would treat him differently, sadly negatively. His condition is actually abnormal. He is so confused. Now he just keep on living as a normal man. He just hides his real identity from the judgmental humanity. I told him, that he is a responsible man, bright and benevolent, which would bring him to success above those who are normal. =============

The Best
(continue living)

He told me that he really loves me. He really admires me. A feeling of jealousy is inevitable, I guess, especially now that he know that I got a girlfriend already. I told him that He will never ever find the right person for him if he will always consider me as the best one. He just told me that it's too hard for him. Very difficult.

Now, we're good friends. He said that he will just continue living, and will try to become optimistic that someday, he will be able to see the right person who will accept and love him forever.

Devastated

by WildnerveZ

I feel so devastated today!!!!!!

I got here job offers but up to now, all of them are still offers.

I wanna have a secured job before I'll attend my review this coming September.

Job offers by now:

Pending------

a. People Support (call center agent)
b. Commercial model. (pending VTR)
c. Assistant of a professor
d. COURSE AUDIT STAFF (recent)

I'm so interested with all of those jobs but I still have to wait,.....
and I dont know till when I have to be patient.

Just this morning my friend professor texted me to come to the campus cause there is a job opporunity which really fits me.

I was so happy and so optimistic, thinking that this would be the job im waiting for.

Then after long wait,.....my friend told me that I have to wait till the course audit coordinator needed my service. I have to wait till someone resigned from the same job, wait till someone needs to be replaced by me.

whew,...I'm so dissapointed.


actually i'm looking for a job cause I wanna support my expenses this coming September.
I wanna fulfill something,..... . I wanna make my life meaningful even for six months. I got here six dull months, and I really really hate it!!!!!!!

I wanna CRY

(.T_T.)